beyondpanic's Diaryland Diary
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Follow Through
For those of you who are bored with my dog stories and think there is something wrong
with me, I'm sorry. I'm fu@king bored with me too, but I have to work this out, somehow and
that's why I blog.
I called my therapist to schedule an appointment with him, but the company wants me to do
another intake interview because it's been two years since I last saw him. I think I may need to
be on a different medication because "normal" people do not react the way I acted this
weekend.
Last night, my husband was sitting next to me on the couch, holding my hand, and I looked down
at our hands and I thought, "How can this man continue to love me when I have put him through this
dog thing SO MANY fu@king times?" I am overwhelmed by how much he loves and needs me - sometimes,
I feel consumed by his love, but at times like this, I am grateful for it AND humbled by it.
...and the scariest thing is that once again, I'm thinking in my mind to tell him to go back
and get the dog and I'll try it again. I know, fu@king sick.
17:04 - 2008-03-20
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