Comments:

Paula - 2007-12-26 22:18:58
My heart is just breaking for you and your panic attacks. There is nothing more debilitating. It is a horrible affliction. (((Hugs)))..sorry your holiday was tough.
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Stephanie - 2007-12-27 06:11:31
Good for you for being honest about what you needed to do, and good for M.H for her lovely response.
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Lynn - 2007-12-27 07:49:50
My heart just breaks for you. You will make the best doggie mommy in the world...eventually, if you want to. I have endless faith in your ability to conquer anything and everything. In the years that we've been friends I have watched you come so very far. Don't give up hope. You've had a lot on your plate these past months. When the time is right, all will work out. And, anytime you feel like hugging a dog, give a holler and you can borrow Yoda, Lily or Gizmo. Pick a breed, any breed.... Luv ya xxoo
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yankeechick - 2007-12-27 09:20:23
Like Paula, it breaks my heart to think of you and your panic attacks. It is a truly horrible affliction. I'm so sorry that it all made Christmas so hard for you, sweet lady but what a relief, I'm sure to have M.H. be so understanding! You just can't push the doggie thing. It'll be right for you someday, if it is meant to be. Somethings just aren't and that's okay too. **hugs**
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Mrs. Chan - 2007-12-27 14:55:23
I think M.H. put it best when she said that life is too short for all this stress. Give yourself "permission to say 'No'". This is not a weakness or a flaw. You are just on the fence between wanting a dog and actually dealing with a dog. Many people go through this. You are preventing yourself from coming to terms with it by challenging yourself to overcome it. Your rational "I know I don't want to deal with a dog" side has been pushed into panic mode by your "I can overcome anything if I just try hard enough and pray hard enough" side. Hmmmm...wonder where that comes from? Chill 'lil sis, as my friendly, neighborhood shrink says, "Keep saying to yourself, 'This is not important, but I am. I won't waste anymore time worrying about it.'" Of course, this is not a magic bullet, but it will slowly imprint itself onto your subconscious and the panic attacks will get less and less intense and less and less frequent. You know I know what I'm talking about!
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Paula - 2007-12-27 21:04:22
Send me your email address and I'll email you a picture of my RED dining room. It's kind of a burgundy red with white up to the chair rail and white painted trim and white painted built in china cabinet and it is stunning...my favorite room. It was one of the things that attracted me to my house. I would have never thought about painting a small room red until I saw it.
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chaos the javelina hunter - 2007-12-28 15:24:00
some day the right dog will find you, and you will know its the right one. in the meantime, POGO is a game site, pogo.com. you should check it out! im drkchclvr on there, put my name in your buddy list and it will tell you what game im playing!
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