beyondpanic's Diaryland Diary
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Dog....again
This is the email I received this morning.
J0@n,I am still trying to place the dog . My sister had someone but that did not work out. So now I am going to put an ad up at the vet and PetSmart I would like to bring one in here as well but I just want to let you know. We want to place her ASAP.
Just fyi in case you see the ads. I do not want to upset you. But unfortunately we have to place her!
Sincerely, Michelle
DOESN�T WANT TO UPSET ME?????????????
HERE WE GO AGAIN!!!!!!!
I immediately called her and told her that we want the dog. I also told her that my son is going to be in town this weekend with his dog and that I did not want to bring the new dog into the house for the first time with another dog already there � that we would get her next week.
I then called my husband who agreed that we couldn�t stand the thought of some stranger at PetSmart getting this adorable dog. He REALLY wants this dog.
So, we�ll see what happens. I had just gotten used to the idea that I would probably never have a dog and now this opportunity comes along. I think that�s the secret to this � I have to see this as an opportunity, not some monster trying to force a rabid dog on me.
I�m fascinated how I react to this situation. I have pretty much mastered all of my panic situations except this one. I took a new job, I travel to Virginia, I actually enjoy holidays again. My son is coming to visit us this weekend with his family. Ordinarily, I would be immobilized with anxiety, and I am freaking a little because there will be extra people in the house and my schedule will be changed, but I know that I�m just going to breathe my way through it.
As far as the dog is concerned, it�s kind of hard to breathe when you�re doubled over with dry heaves and diarrhea and you�re rocking back and forth in your bed wearing the same clothes you had on for two days�and that�s after taking Effexor and Xanax.
For those of you who are totally bored with my attempts at dog ownership, I will not be hurt if you decide to stop reading. If I wasn�t living it, I probably wouldn�t be reading it either.
9:19 p.m. - January 22, 2008
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